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i live for truth and in the aesthetic. i am a deconstructionist. i ask questions relentlessly and the record of answers is barren. agnosticism is the reward of my life, and contradictions, its true state. point is, that the pain of unknowing and the relief of acknowledging that unknowability are one. most people stay outside my world, and those who come in i value the most. the greatest question ani difranco has for me:"for a woman who has everything, what have you got?" ~yier
 
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yier @ 2010-03-30 21:08

a world with too much information is inevitably a world of varying priorities, or better, a world of choices.  how we live our lives is ultimately a matter of choice, no matter if it's made from above or personally.  as an agnostic person, of course including living with the doubt that god exists, i can see only one way of living my life to the fullest, i.e., making the best choice for myself.  before going further, i must say that philosophical reflections (and therefore words) should not be treated as day-to-day language, just as metaphors should not be read as logical.  otherwise, no sense can be made, only conflicts will ensue, meaningless conflicts, to be sure.

everyone of us adheres to a certain mode of existence, aesthetically, or ethically, or logically, or emotionally, etc.  by using 'adheres to', i mean largely, heavily, or almost exclusively preferring a certain mode, consciously or unconsciously.  i don't think these modes have anything in common; it's just that we predominantly adhere to one mode and exist in other modes at the same time.  and that is exactly where conversations are possible, albeit accidental and often passing in no time. 

while we are on the mode not that familiar, we tend to lean towards the more familiar values.  consequently, for instance, when someone is on the ethical mode of existence, which is not her primal choice, she will still prefer the more emotional values in this mode, since the emotional mode is her thing.  so on and so forth.  just as we look different, perhaps no two persons are exactly the same.  and even if people with similar primal modes are stuck together, having some meaningful conversations, they part their way somewhere, sometimes suddenly realizing how different they are.  well, even if their primal existence is the same, they differ as to how to live out that existence.  for example, philosophical existence doesn't just imply one thing; it can create numerous schools of thought, and which school one leans towards is the next issue.  and then let us come to one step further.  even if we lean towards the same school, adhering to the same mode of existence, we can still differ as to the core spirit of the school and its execution.

well, now you see what i am trying to say here.  that is, we are hopelessly different and inevitably lonely.


 
yier @ 2009-10-30 23:02

愛也痛苦,不愛也痛苦;
生也痛苦,死也痛苦;
感性痛苦,理性也痛苦;
做所謂對的事,痛苦,
做所謂錯的事、壞的人,也痛苦;
放不下痛苦,什麼都無所謂了還是痛苦;
放眼未來痛苦,活在當下同樣也是痛苦。

無論怎樣,都是痛苦。
人生在世,幸福是奢侈。
活著無意義,自殺又無勇氣。
對自己極度失望。


 
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